Welcome back to my blog! I know, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. I’ve been hiding under excuses and telling myself “I’ll get to that tomorrow”, but tomorrow keeps arriving with me not giving it a go again. Seriously…not a single post or page update since September. And it bled over into other things…like no posts on my Facebook page, and rarely posting on Instagram. Truly, I began thinking that if I didn’t have the knowledge or means to take the perfectly posed picture, posting on Instagram wasn’t worth it. My creations weren’t worth it. What a shame! Then, a week ago, I was scrolling down my Instagram feed and saw a post from @whistleandivy that really resonated with me:
Reading this made me realize just how much I am sabotaging myself with doubt. I’m too nervous to post, and I am afraid to fail. When I started this blog, I wasn’t new to crocheting, or even to writing, but I was (and still am) very new to websites/Wordpress/blogging. I designed my site with A LOT of trial and error, and I liked what I saw. But there wasn’t the same “instant gratification” that crocheting itself gives me. Every page and post was exhausting to create. I liked what I wrote, but no one else would, except my mom….because she’s supposed to love EVERYTHING that I do, right?! So, day in and day out I’d think about this blog sitting here, lonely, and still not try.
Then Bethany, who is one of the reasons I wanted to start a blog to begin with, put that little picture on Instagram and BOOM, I realized there’s nothing holding me back, except ME. I can learn how to make this website work by watching tutorials and reading articles to educate myself. I have thoughts that I would like to share, and I create some pretty fun things. I’ve got to stop questioning myself and get back to LEARNING and MAKING.
So here it is, my first post in six long months. It’s not much, but it’s something, and I am happy to hit the PUBLISH button!